I was wondering what was up with this Craig's List website everyone talks about when they want to sell or get rid of something locally, so I went and checked it out. Under personals, I was curious to see what missed connections meant. I wasn't sure if it would be about people who broke up or just lost touch or whatever. It turns out it is for random people who lost touch. Surprisingly, though, I actually found it kind of romantic, in one of those borderline romantic-creepy sort of ways.

There are a lot of posts by people seeking someone they saw once and made eye contact with at a random Farmer Jack or dentist office. Most of them say "you were so beautiful." I don't know why. It seems like something out of a movie for me, and yet I guess it's occurring right here in metro-Detroit -- at our local Trader Joe's, to the hip restaurants over at Fountain Walk. I think it's romantic that someone might hope that one glance could lead to an actual relationship. Or creepy, I can't decide. What do you guys think?

This is kind of fun it's a personality test based on what other people think of you. If you want, check out mine and post your own so I can see yours. :)

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Inland North You may think you speak "Standard English straight out of the dictionary" but when you step away from the Great Lakes you get asked annoying questions like "Are you from Wisconsin?" or "Are you from Chicago?" Chances are you call carbonated drinks "pop."
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It's a typical Michigan fall this year-- a random mix of extremely chilling and mild, sunny days. Today happens to be one of those rare, crisp hardly-need-a-coat bright days, although the trees are already naked in preparation for winter.

On the way home from class today, I was flipping past my stations, forgetting that 100.3 WNIC has been playing non-stop Christmas music since November 1st. Without really acknowledging it, I left the station on 100.3 for awhile and only after a few moments realized I was listening to "Santa Claus is Coming to Town!" My windows were down, coat was off... there is no way Santa Claus is coming to this town. Not in this weather.

A - Accent: I like British accents.
B - Breakfast Item: Crepes.
C - Chore you hate: Cleaning the toilet, it's pretty gross.
D - Dad's Name: Bill.
E - Essential everyday item: A smile!
F - Flavour ice cream: Peppermint (the limited edition that comes out near Christmas time)
G - Gold or Silver?: Gold, white or yellow.
H - Hometown: I was born in Detroit, raised in the burbs.
I - Insomnia: Occassionally.
J - Job Title: Recreation Leader.
K - Kids: None.
L - Living arrangements: I live with my parents, my sister lives at MSU.
M - Mum's birthplace: Detroit, MI.
N - Number of significant others you've had: One.
O - Overnight hospital stays: None, although I had one that occured in the middle of the night for about six hours when I needed stitches on my forehead because a weight fell on my head while Haley and I were making a tent in sixth grade.
P - Phobia: Ants, cockroaches, high stairwells with the kind of stairs that one can see through the slats.
Q - Queer: I'm not gay, but I probably am eccentric.
R - Religious Affiliation: Christian/Catholic
S - Siblings: One sister, 21.
T - Time you wake up: About 8:15AM to get to school, a little earlier for work.
U - Unnatural hair colours you've had: Lighter blonde.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Lima beans.
W - Worst habit: Getting addicted to the computer or video games, procrastinating, knocking over things...
X - X-rays you've had: Teeth and jaw, arm.
Y - Yummy: Weird candy like sour gummy worms and sour powders.
Z - Zodiac sign: Aquarius


Even LiveJournal changed things around to speak in a pirate's dialect. Weird.

I had to give a speech today to a class of strangers where I was on 9/11. So this morning I turned on the all day news stations, because I knew there was going to a live feed of the events broadcasted. I listened and watched between quick sips of cider and rushing around with my toothbrush still in my mouth. Watching the videos brought back the emotions I felt that day, when I was only fourteen years old, along with more mature realization of the situation and what kind of consequences, both willing and unwilling, followed. It was kind of emotional, just listening to the honest confusion in the usually information-crazed media.

I had to leave to go to school around 9:30, which was actually late, considering my class began at 9:55 and technically, it should take me a healthy thirty minutes to drive to campus. I was driving along Telegraph, doing the typical Monday morning weave -- sliding past slow-moving white company vans and avoiding the long lines at each red light -- when I flipped past a station with a strange sounding commercial on it. I'm never in the mood for commercials, and I usually can find something compliant to my tastes on the twelve or so stations I have setup on my car radio, but the voice on the commercial was deep and commandeering, while all the same strangely comforting.

It was saying something similar to this:
I was there. I was standing beside the person in the airplane that was frightened when it was high-jacked. I was there through the explosions and fires, standing by your side. Many people screamed my name as their last word, others prayed for mercy. I was there. I was there and I called out to you, but some of you did not take my hand through the smoke...

(It went on for a moment all about sad moments during 9/11/2001 and how God was there, though the deep voice was never truly identified)

Someday you will be in your last moment. Will you seek me out? Will you take my hand? I'll be there no matter what. Remember, I love you.

My post and summary do not give justice to the strong language and convincing and somehow sad and chastising the voice sounded. I did not cry, but there were tears in my eyes for a good three or four miles... I almost wanted to turn it off because it was so sad, but it was one of those things that you just can't stop listening to, though you're not sure why. I suppose I was somewhat moved... I mean, it's still in my head. The tone seemed to follow that of those advertisements on the billboards that have a short, witty statement followed by -God.

I don't know if the actual "commercial" was an advertisement or not -- it was during a 9/11 tribute on 106.7 The Fox radio station (yes, the hick one that took over The Drive, but I love my country!) and it didn't have a sponsor's name. A lot of country music fans are well-known to be Christians, and there is a lot of Christian reference in country music in general, so it is possible it wasn't an ad. My curiosity was just piqued all day from the side of me that is interested in advertising, and the Christian in me. In my opinion, it was a very effective ad/segment.

Paul and I are headed to the Proud Lake area to canoe down the Huron River. How romantic! This weekend really turned out to be a lot better than expected, I'm having a lot of fun. <3 <3 <3

EDIT:

Okay, well it wasn't the romantic fantasy I thought it'd be, seeing as I'm not exactly an outdoorsy person or a very strong person to steer a huge canoe. It ended up a lot of fun though... despite the dozen times we ended up stuck on rocks, trees, the shoreline... in fact, right from the launch site we ran into a dead tree, and then couldn't get out because I couldn't stop laughing.

It was interesting, though, and we saw a turtle! The area is very peaceful and the staff that rented the boats were nice, though they weren't very helpful since Paul and I had no idea what we were doing. We only went out for about an hour, but I probably could have gone longer. I got the hang of the steering toward the end of the trip, then two guys barrelled into our canoe despite my efforts to try and make it go to the otherside. Paul was great at rowing, we picked up a lot of speed.

I'd recommend the area for a date, but a different kind of date than you'd expect.

This lovely new layout was coded by Carrie with the header image done by me.

This cartoon about overly nice guys is really funny! The rest are a little bit funny, but that one is the best.

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I'm writing on borrowed time here, because I'm on my way to lunch with Erin, she's home for her spring break. Anyway, I think I've mainly kept this journal through the past year to be able to read my friends' entries, but yesterday I was pretty bored at the school library and decided to read some old entries. While in no way a comprehensive history of my high school years, some of the entries I read were amusing... I didn't even remember writing them! Most of them are about guys or friends in general, and over reactions to the stupidest things, like getting grounded from the TV, phone, and internet, or posting about how I IMed some asshole hockey player and he wrote back.

I'm kind of glad of where I am now compared to all of that, even stuff that happened last year. There's not really too much unneccesary drama in my life now, if you don't count ridiculous fights that Paul and I manage to get into. For example, the most recent and explosive argument was over my Japanese midterm and how I got a good grade, but I thought it would be bad, but Paul said it would be good, and I got pissed. But anyway, the point is I'm glad I don't take the time to write about stupid things like that anymore, which I guess kind of leads me not to write at all.

So just as a short and relatively normal update, drama and worry-free, for the most part... last week was my spring break, and I'm sad to say nothing much was accomplished. Most people were still in school, so I didn't see too many friends. Haley and I went to downtown Birmingham, which was supposed to be nice, but it turned out not to have very many stores interesting for people our age, and everything closed around 5, even though it was Friday night.

Then we went back to her place, I tried tea for the third time and hated it, and we did manicures! The rest of the week is highlighted by hanging out with Paul. We watched 'Walk the Line' and it was awesome, one of my favorites now. School this week hasn't been bad, though in the upcoming weeks a lot of stuff is going to be due, the semester is ending at the end of April.

As for the summer, which will be extra long this year, I was thinking about trying for a new job because of the lack of hours I get at the Rec and the staff. I love working at the summer camps, but the other staff really annoys me. Most of them are high schoolers that don't know how to deal with kids... they end up flirting with each other half of the time and leaving 30 hyper seven year olds to me and like one other person. My parents convinced me to take another class instead and just work less hours (maybe like 25-30).

Anyway, I'm off to Rebecca's with Erin.

Before I forget, this LJ icon was made by Puck and it's lovely etc etc. Thank you!

I feel kind of blah this week. Stressed out from school, papers due left and right, professors with unclear expectations left and right... and finally doing the same thing everday! School. Homework. Sleep. Sometimes work gets stuck in there just to make everything better! Right.
I think I really need to go on a date with Paul, hang out with a friend... pref a girl's night out, and then I can jump right back in.
I'm sorry to all my friends that I haven't visited all your lovely campuses yet. It's a struggle to keep up with friends that are still here in Livonia! :( I will try my best to look for a time where maybe I can come.

I just wanted to take a moment to ask for your prayers or even thoughts for my Great Grandmother Mildred, who is in her mid-eighties and has lived a fabulous life. She has an aggressive form of cancer, and only has months to live. We all love her very much! She is the youngest older lady I know, and most recently, she even did my hair for prom. We would appreciate your prayers, thank you.

The night, twelve o'clock in the morning sky was red as I drove home from Paul's. It was like nothing I've ever seen. So strange.

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I don't even have a summer vacation planned this summer! How terrible. :(

IN other news... I went to SHS Prom, it was great, except for my bruised head from the updo. I'm excited for Churchill's, but not AS, because I already know what it's like and all. But it will be cool to dance among people we know.

So yeah.

I just looked at my college schedule and realized I will only be able to work at my current job 4 days a week, which might not make my parents too happy. I will have to take some shifts in other areas of the Rec, I guess.

Paul just left, I listened to his speech for awhile, we went to CVS, then we just talked and goofed around... he's going to Indiana this weekend.

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Today I went to go see The Grudge with Paul and his mom and brother; it was scary even though it made no sense. I guess horror movies do that to you.
I also wrote some of my UofM app, and it's later than everyone else's... and my counselor has neglected sending any of my apps in yet. Oh, well... I have no idea about college.
Oh, well...
Homecoming went alright. Wow, I cannot believe that their (old) gym is not attatched to the outside, and there are two areas where the gym has a second floor, so 1) everyone was smushed together dancing 2) it was unbearably hot! (Paul's face was dripping sweat) and 3) it smelled soooo bad from all of the sweaty people! But, I must say, SHS completely shows up CHS in terms of decorations. I did not feel like I was hardly in a school with their breathtaking decorations, plus they had the cafeteria to sit down in with your date and talk.
Weekends pass much too quickly. Tomorrow should as well; I will not be home until 8:00 at night, due to debate tournament. I must admit to being slightly nervous at the skills of the other debators this year, as we are on varsity. Should be fun.

A quote I like:

"If you can laugh at the end of a hard day, you have succeeded it."

I can rarely do that, I should think of doing so more often.

Today I am going to SHS Homecoming. Haley came over and did my hair, and now I feel much better about relations between us! I think we just needed to talk.
Anyway, crappy day for a homecoming... it should be fun. :)

We also got the news today that my great-grandmother in Florida has Uterine cancer, so... it's kind of gloomy over here.

:/

Opening song: 'brown eyed girl'
Waking up: 'perfect day' by hoku
First date: 'this kiss'
First kiss: 'love song' 311
Falling in love: 'iris' by goo goo dolls
Seeing an old love:'you'll think of me' keith urban
Heartbreak: 'burn' by usher
Driving fast: 'yeah' by usher
Getting ready to go out: "girls jus wanna have fun"
Partying with friends: 'Flavor of the Week' american hi-5
Dancing at a club: 'goodies' by ciara or 'slow motion'
Flirting: 'boys' brittany spears
Feeling sexy: 'number 1' nelly
Walking alone in the rain: 'loser' 3 doors down
Missing someone: 'here without you' by 3 Doors Down
Playing in the ocean: 'soaking up the sun' sheryl crowe
Summer vacation: 'magic stick'
Fighting with someone: 'lose yourself' eminem or 'roses' outkast
Acting goofy with friends: 'jesse's girl'
Thinking back: 'don't take the girl' tim mcgraw
Feeling depressed: 'concrete angel' martina mcbride 'everytime' britney spears
Falling asleep: 'bed of lies' mb20
Closing song: 'black balloon' goo goo dolls

I got this idea from a bunch of other CHS people's journals about writing about 10 unnamed people. I think I will do it.

1. I admire you because you work so hard, and you deserve everything you get. You are probably among the elite few that actually think I'm funny, which works. We also work very well together. Sometimes I feel like I could not measure up to you, but then I think about it and know that it is because you work so hard to be what you are, and that I could never have that kind of motivation. I know you will have LOTS of money one day, you are brilliant.

2. I think you are a very fun person, but sometimes I get jealous of you, because you are so charismatic. You are relentlessly kind to everyone, and that is one thing that is good and bad about you, because sometimes people take advantage of you, even if you don't know it.

3. I have a lot of mixed feelings about you as of late. I believe you are a lot like me. Things just come to you. You have changed a lot, as have I, and we are drifting apart, even if we said we'd like to be friends for a long time. To me you seemed to never want attention, or perhaps never had it, but now that you do you love it. I feel like you have moved on, and even though you may still value our friendship, you do not put it as a priority. I can almost understand, I sort of did the same thing to you several months ago. I'm very unsure, though. I'd like to give you a call, I'm just not sure of our frienship right now.

4. We've always known each other, it seems, but have become closer in high school. You are very talented, and very, very kind. I have said before that you are the nicest person I know. You are a very supportive friend, and just a beautiful person in general. I love hanging out with you! You and me both are usually short on money, it's quite funny. I admire you because you put everything into everything you do.

5. We have a lot of past together, full of bumps, but we are still friends. At times I have told you my darkest secrets. At the moment, I feel like our relationship is dwindling, and I have to admit to feeling like a 'last choice' friend. I feel like you would call me only after calling everyone else, because lately that's how it seems. I would like to talk to you, but I never can, there's never time, and it makes me very upset. The sad thing is, I don't know if you feel the same way or if you are just too caught up in everything. I know you are much more busy than I am, but I wish you would call me on any random day and at least ask how I am.

6. You may know me better than anyone, but I suppose that would be implied. You are still unpredictable to me from time to time, and you never fail at making me laugh through my tears. Sometimes I wish I was more like you, because you are the kind of person that can kick the world in the ass on a bad day and almost not let anyone else's thoughts bother you. You make me stronger, and I enjoy every moment I get with you.

7. You are very charismatic. Everybody loves you now, but you forgot about those who enjoyed your company before there was anyone else. You are, on a bad note, blatant, selfish, and inflated. Yet, you are brutally honest. When I ever talk to you or even see you.

8. I think you are a very good person, but I am somewhat annoyed with you from time to time. You are a people-person, and you are a genuine kind person that would never mean to hurt anyone. Yet, even though you seem to be so confident, I don't always think you are. You change your face around different people, perhaps only to please them, but it undermines your integrity. You have a great talent, though, and I think if you stick to that or something else having to do with the public, you'll do great things.

9. I honest-to-gosh don't like you, flat out. I'm sure you know, but sometimes I cannot explain why. Perhaps it's because you try so hard to be different, maybe it's the way you gossip, or maybe it's the way you think you're better than everyone else. I wish you would stop talking about your boyfriend and CCS all of the time. You are really annoying, sorry.

10. We used to be friends. I would not call us friends now, we never talk, but perhaps only think positively of each other. You have changed a lot, even though we don't talk anymore, I can tell when I see you in the hall. I always think, especially when I log into Livejournal, of giving you a call, but it somehow always slips my mind. We used to have a lot of fun together, way back when. I wish we would get together sometime, we probably have a lot in common now.


That did feel really good to get out. I hope it wasn't too pessimistic... it seems I'm upset with quite a few people right now. I feel very non-confrontational lately, though, and I don't want to hurt any relationships more before thinking things through. #6 is fairly obvious, I guess.